you stabbed me twice today

i know. i understand where you’re coming from but hey, might as well have a little bit more emotion. i’m not dramatic, i’m just a plain person that speaks my mind. you are too strong. and you pained me. twice

i realized

that i got used to you being around, being CLOSELY around me. i got used to your gestures, the way you move close to me, the way you look, the way you show concern. the way you want me to be with you at times.

perhaps i am right when i said that i misinterpreted your actions. we are friends, and that’s all we’ll ever be. i am right when i said that we can’t be together.

i realized that you treat me the way you treat other people, or perhaps you  give me 5%, no 2.5% more special treatment. and because of that 2.5%, i misunderstood you and your actions towards me. i don’t feel bad though. i think i’ve come to the point where i have accepted things as they are, and that i don’t have to argue with myself that i am way special to you. i’ve accepted that i’m not and i got used to your actions already.

it’s kinda nice that i feel more comfortable when we are together, i don’t think of meanings behind your actions because i’m used to it. although i admit that i get jealous when other people, specially new acquanitances, take most of your time. :P i know, i know, i shouldn’t be feeling this but hey, i’m a pretty possessive friend. :P don’t worry i make up for being one just by being the sweet and concerned me.

i can’t say i fell in love with you, perhaps i was infatuated? i really don’t know. but that phase is HOPEFULLY CLOSED. i am way happy now with how things are going. we hang out, we laugh, we enjoy. and that’s all that matters. and yes, the substance of our friendship. beat it. :)

-Resolved DU :)

you’re getting there

now, i think you’re getting there.

you’re starting to like me BUT you don’t know you are. it’s like having a dirt on your face, you don’t know you have one unless SOMEBODY TELLS YOU SO. therefore, you need someone to tell you that you’re starting to like me. or YOU LOOK IN THE MIRROR long enough to notice that tiny dirt. therefore, you should look hard, try to think about it so you’ll realize.

of course, i am assuming again. you know, you’ve done something again that made me think you do like me. funny eh? but you see, you have to stop doing to me what you’re doing so i’ll have no reasons to interpret your actions and that i’ll stop thinking that you like me. :P

do you have any idea how hard it is to interpret? i bet you know. so stop.

you’re making me think so hard that it emanates in my academics. i’m doing very very well in school. inspired? motivated.

thank you nonetheless.

-DU

when i’m NOT WITH YOU..

DU’s first photo-blog entry. Because sometimes, pictures tell so much of how you feel that words, in all its encompassing glory, cannot.

you are my life’s greatest puzzle

Lately, you’ve been doing things that seem too much for a friend-friend relationship. i am a SHE and i can feel the difference, there are actions you’ve been showing that make me feel you like me, perhaps?

i can’t just ignore those signals you’re sending me, or perhaps i’m reading the signals wrong? i’ve already asked a friend about the things you’ve been doing/showing and her reply, in summary, is HOPE. that perhaps you’re starting to like me. yes, yes, i know. this is too much. or perhaps, i’ve been reading the signals accurately! good then. because i like you too.

i’m still in the process of figuring out of what your actions really mean. you see, you are so far, the most difficult puzzle i’m left to solve, alone.

when will i figure? when will the answers come to me?

you are a puzzle. i am a puzzle piece. therefore, i’m hoping we fit together.