i realized

that i got used to you being around, being CLOSELY around me. i got used to your gestures, the way you move close to me, the way you look, the way you show concern. the way you want me to be with you at times.

perhaps i am right when i said that i misinterpreted your actions. we are friends, and that’s all we’ll ever be. i am right when i said that we can’t be together.

i realized that you treat me the way you treat other people, or perhaps you  give me 5%, no 2.5% more special treatment. and because of that 2.5%, i misunderstood you and your actions towards me. i don’t feel bad though. i think i’ve come to the point where i have accepted things as they are, and that i don’t have to argue with myself that i am way special to you. i’ve accepted that i’m not and i got used to your actions already.

it’s kinda nice that i feel more comfortable when we are together, i don’t think of meanings behind your actions because i’m used to it. although i admit that i get jealous when other people, specially new acquanitances, take most of your time. :P i know, i know, i shouldn’t be feeling this but hey, i’m a pretty possessive friend. :P don’t worry i make up for being one just by being the sweet and concerned me.

i can’t say i fell in love with you, perhaps i was infatuated? i really don’t know. but that phase is HOPEFULLY CLOSED. i am way happy now with how things are going. we hang out, we laugh, we enjoy. and that’s all that matters. and yes, the substance of our friendship. beat it. :)

-Resolved DU :)